Embracing the pivots.
My mentor has always reminded me that the healing experience is not linear, but like a spiral. We are never going backwards but on the downward part of that spiral.
The key to navigate this experience with ease is by understanding that life is a cycle of opportunities. When we commit to experiencing change, we are met with the opportunity to pivot. In that pivot we are given the opportunity to experience the familiarity in order to step into the change. It’s not punishment, it’s not a test, but an opportunity for change. A pivot.
Society has made many of us feel that a pivot is bad, or that we are “all over the place” when we boldly embrace change. But let’s be honest, the world could use change. For years we have be conditioned to believe our mundane lifestyles are normal, and what life is about. There is no fulfillment in this mundane lifestyle, there is no joy or happiness. Why do you think we experience so much depression and anxiety as a collective now?
Creativity is the cure for our mental suffering. But we’ve been conditioned to believe this is a waste of time or this activity is limited to child’s play only. I often think about my creative peers that talk about the projections they experience due to their choice to live in a creativity flow rather than capitalist structure. We live in a world where creative expression is either praised and valued or disapproved. This duality can become damaging over time if the person struggles to free accepted.
To freely be accepted is something I recently just faced within my life. For many years, I have struggled to be accepted by everyone I viewed to be important to me. In the beginning my dreams were not accepted, but I continued to purse my dreams. They later slowly started to accept me when I “proved” my dreams could sustain my lifestyle. However, when I feel short I was met with their “I told you so” comments and the lectures of what I “should” be doing with my life.
This year I decided to make some major changes in my life. I am 33 years old and I feel I have not fully lived my life due to the limitations and restrictions. Never have I fully put myself out there to live my dreams because deep down inside I started to believe they were right. I started to question myself, wondering why did I think I was so special, who did I think I really was? These questions haunted me every time I took a leap into my desires, almost crippling me in mid leap.
In this pivot, I am learning silence. The vision, the dream, the desire was given to me and I learned it is for me to pursue in silence. Not to share with others for their permission to start. I realized how my excitement and drive would be altered by other’s opinions, and this cost me many opportunities. As my self-discovery journey continues I understand that my experiences are for me, they are mine. Therefore, nothing or no one can cancel what is meant for me. My delays and setbacks were only to redirect me, to offer that opportunity to pivot. Whether it be my thoughts, my beliefs, my direction, the path, the pivot is going to be clear. Our body will tell us, the signs and synchronies will be undeniable. Yet at times we still try to deny, leading to the pivot being forced. That’s when the pivot is hard and it feels like we are going backwards.
Remember, it’s never backward it’s always forward moving that path is taking us to the destination it’s just how we get there. Do we choose the path of least resistance or do we choose the path of hardship?
That is the power of free will.
I pray today you choose the path that brings you ease, grace, and fulfillment.